I like having my own mini adventures, where I pretend that I have finally moved out of my parents' house, working by day, attending classes by evening, and meeting friends by night. My latest adventure was yesterday, when Snappy and I decided to meet. I baked him a chocolate cake, which he ate like a hungry pig, the highlight of my day was seeing him turning into a child and eating it with glee in his eyes! We took a walk and decided, although we weren't hungry, to go for a pizza and some chocolate buns full of a complete Nutella explosion, you know because we are dieting and aiming for the slim figure we all aspire to.
While eating a little toddler comes in with his family and decides to just come over and say hello, to be honest the little sucker made me happy because the last time a child and I had eye contact, he screamed bloody murder as if I were some sort of pedophile, to be told later.
After the cute guy returned to his family, Snappy goes all Yoda-assing me saying I am a natural mother; I was born to do this job. Yeah because it is so magical having an alien creature inside of you for 9 months or so and then pushing it out of your not so beautiful body making you feel like an empty vessel, used and useless. This reminds me of the Matrix, when Neo got this freakishly looking worm inside of him by force and they had to cut it out. Yikes!
Back to my adventure, after we ate the pizza and the Nutella explosion buns, we walked to the bus station, and went home. What's the point of all this? I have realized that I am capable of defeating the system, not by fighting it, but by smiling and waving, just like the penguins in Madagascar. I get to treat myself every once in a while with a mini outing, a breather. I don't have to suffer and suffocate in silence. I don't have to simply be the ultimate drowning, overwhelmed working woman I am. I can simply just work in my working hours, prepare my lesson for the upcoming class, and treat myself to an outing at the end of the week. See? No harm done and instead a sense of harmony and balance is created. What happens at work, doesn't exist after the working hours are over. What happens in class, is applied when preparing and doing assignments. What happens with my friends, remains memories and pictures to go back to in times of stress.
I have finally decided to give myself a break and enjoy myself even in the most tensed stages in my life. I deserve it, I am powerful, beautiful, smart, independent, and in control of my own life. I set goals to surpass them not to pile them up next to me and watch how I grow older by the minute in front of a shattered mirror called society. I am in control, whether they like it or not. I will be happy whether they accept it or not. I am a fighter not a quitter and whatever shit you throw at me, you will find me standing, smiling and waving back to you.
What defeats you comes from within, the outside is just a set of tools aiding with the process. You are powerful from within and you can always choose whether you want self-loathing or self-empowering!
Have a blessed morning full of pancakes, freshly brewed coffee, and fruits cut into adorable bite-size. You have earned you day-off, fair and square!
PS: I bet you Snappy will go all sarcastic on me after reading this post.
While eating a little toddler comes in with his family and decides to just come over and say hello, to be honest the little sucker made me happy because the last time a child and I had eye contact, he screamed bloody murder as if I were some sort of pedophile, to be told later.
After the cute guy returned to his family, Snappy goes all Yoda-assing me saying I am a natural mother; I was born to do this job. Yeah because it is so magical having an alien creature inside of you for 9 months or so and then pushing it out of your not so beautiful body making you feel like an empty vessel, used and useless. This reminds me of the Matrix, when Neo got this freakishly looking worm inside of him by force and they had to cut it out. Yikes!
Back to my adventure, after we ate the pizza and the Nutella explosion buns, we walked to the bus station, and went home. What's the point of all this? I have realized that I am capable of defeating the system, not by fighting it, but by smiling and waving, just like the penguins in Madagascar. I get to treat myself every once in a while with a mini outing, a breather. I don't have to suffer and suffocate in silence. I don't have to simply be the ultimate drowning, overwhelmed working woman I am. I can simply just work in my working hours, prepare my lesson for the upcoming class, and treat myself to an outing at the end of the week. See? No harm done and instead a sense of harmony and balance is created. What happens at work, doesn't exist after the working hours are over. What happens in class, is applied when preparing and doing assignments. What happens with my friends, remains memories and pictures to go back to in times of stress.
I have finally decided to give myself a break and enjoy myself even in the most tensed stages in my life. I deserve it, I am powerful, beautiful, smart, independent, and in control of my own life. I set goals to surpass them not to pile them up next to me and watch how I grow older by the minute in front of a shattered mirror called society. I am in control, whether they like it or not. I will be happy whether they accept it or not. I am a fighter not a quitter and whatever shit you throw at me, you will find me standing, smiling and waving back to you.
What defeats you comes from within, the outside is just a set of tools aiding with the process. You are powerful from within and you can always choose whether you want self-loathing or self-empowering!
Have a blessed morning full of pancakes, freshly brewed coffee, and fruits cut into adorable bite-size. You have earned you day-off, fair and square!
PS: I bet you Snappy will go all sarcastic on me after reading this post.
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