A new stage

It's not about inspiration, it's more of having this insatiable urge to write. To write everything and anything, to bring my stream of consciousness alive. To raise the dead, the way Frankenstein did to his creature. To play the role of Mother Nature; to corrupt when angered, to tear it all down before building everything from scratch. This is what I usually do, whenever I am upset or in need to concentrate, I clean. I tear down my closet, rearrange my bed, over and over, till all the pillows are equally fluffy, and iron my socks like there is no tomorrow. Unfortunately, I cannot do this to everything else that just seems so wrong. I cannot take over. I do not interfere, though I wish I could.

I feel like the super villain, I can actually relate to him, he sees that his way is the best. Why discuss when you can simply command? A super villain will put the world to rest, he can find organization amidst havoc. He destroys because he knows that this structure was never "the" structure. He seeks perfection, but God forbid that this happens; for the super heroes are the real true bad guys, who will do anything to restore the "order." People don't live in peace and tranquility in that "order" they are just some really poor guys who have been brainwashed all this time, they are made to think that mediocre is good, that this is as far as you can reach. That deconstruction is what the super heroes are trying to fight with all their might. There is no room for anything but the norm. The heroes are the fire igniting Moloch's hunger, they feed him submission, he in return tyrannizes them. Creativity is banned, repetition is embraced with malice. The villains loose because they are outnumbered by the Red Queen's soldiers who simply follow orders, they never stop to think that the foe might be a friend, one capable of rescuing their souls that help feed the Dementors who are feasting over their long lost dreams and hopes. It's a vicious Oscar-worthy circle.

My next stage is not to rebel, it is to contemplate, to try and think. I want to meditate, to visualize the deconstruction. I am not keen on breaking nor abiding by the rules; no I feel like embracing whatever the universe plans on throwing at me. I shall not seek what is not mine, till I have a sign to go after it. Today, I am the receiver not the giver. Bring it on, I say!

Peace out! H!
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