Waking up lazy on an important day is not a good thing, you get to coax yourself into doing what you know you should have done way back, but were having "fun" so you postponed it. See why having a plan is good? You avoid such pleasantries of procrastinating. I need to get my universe straight again. I need my sense of accomplishment, I do not want to drown in a guilt trip that I could have avoided.
The inspiration to go on writing is kindling which is good, I suppose. I need to write, to express my inner self's feelings, to feel connected to her. It is really ironic that I keep writing on being unable to write. I guess that is me letting my stream of consciousness run loose. I get to write about it and you get to read about it!
Only yesterday I listened to one of my favorite Disney songs: "Journey to the Past"- Anastasia, it was really nostalgic listening to it. Oh dear, it is lovely! I can always relate to it on some level. Yet, my journey is to the future, to dig deep down myself and find out what was I meant for, what has my universe planned for me, what great successes that are waiting for me to be tackled! A really hopeful and encouraging song to be listened to in the early morning hours. It is enough to make me smile, and just look forward to whatever is about to come. I am writing my journey, I am setting the events as I speak, every step is an unfolding of what is to happen.
The haphazard thoughts force me to write my parallel universe of tranquility where I am all cuddled down with a fluffy blanket, hot chocolates and marshmallows reading a really good book in the garden on a fall evening. Such a peaceful picture to visualize and feel content about. My thoughts keep rushing to the day I get back to work, how I would choke or just get all nervous. I try to put these thoughts at bay considering that is not the first time I have went through that process, I need to focus. Detoxing is no longer for solitude it's for the sake of my insanity, to restore back the balanced madness.
Enough of this madness already, have a great day!
Peace out! H!
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