Watching romantic-comedy and drama series and movies while detoxing is never a good idea. You get to visualize how it could have been, you create scenarios you know will never happen. The thought excites you, but that's pretty much it.
While detoxing, I am trying to isolate myself from any male counterpart, I do not want to visualize something I am not ready for. I just, I really do not know, I do not feel like writing today. I am a bit empty, void.
In a castle made of glass, I see everything around me, it is so vast, so spacious, but I sit down and watch. I see a mother cooking while talking to her sister. A son playing video games all day, pulling all nighters just to finish a level. I see an arrogant person who just assumes that everything is supposed to be at the tips of his fingers. I see a father who is just a father. I see me, watching the television, writing, trying to figure out how it all ends.
My thoughts today are disorganized. I haven't found out my working plan yet. As a working woman, I need goals. I need to have a "what's next" plan. I want success and I shall have it. That is my new outline, my greater plan.
Peace out! H!
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