Detoxing for Solitude: Day 3

I never claimed that I am the most perfect organized human being on earth, but there are some things that I need to have organized and planned to perfection. For example, my wardrobe, that is arranged according to the colours of the rainbow from red, orange, yellow, going to violet, and then brown, gray, black, and white. Why do I make such a fuss about it? Well because they look pretty every time I open the wardrobe; seeing them this way untouched makes me happy and proud that I made all this by myself. However, if someone ever touches my rainbow organized wardrobe, to add or take out anything from it, all hell breaks loose! I tear the whole thing down and restart again with a different pattern till I calm down. The process of folding and rearranging gets me to calm down, that my little universe has law and orders that are to be followed to the letter.

The same thing goes for my work, I organize how the week is supposed to go and I do my best to follow and meet the deadlines I put for myself. If I succeed, I give myself a pat on the shoulder; if not, then I punish myself to meet it before the week ends, no matter what. There must be order. I think I am a special type of O.C.D. ( Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.) My desk is to be arranged the way I have arranged it, nothing is to be moved, not even slightly from its place. I feel that there is something terribly wrong when I work, as if my senses tingle to tell me something is misplaced; and then I get to rearrange it to wash away that terrible feeling. I am a very tiresome person to live with, if you are a slob or even worse a spontaneous person.

I used to be a spontaneous person back when I was a student, nothing ever planned, nothing ever calculated, just going with the flow. A very haphazard way of life if you ask me. You don't get to do anything nor accomplish much. Life is to be enjoyed throughly, but when you are done with your chores and tasks. The sense of accomplishment accompanied by the leisure of laying back and having fun is way better than the guilt trip that is forced upon the soul for neglecting their duties while having their share of fun.

Peace Out! H!
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